The Exploration

  I can wait I wish I didn’t look this way I wish I wasn’t so young in age I can’t wait til Saturday I can’t wait til my birthday I wish the sky wasn’t so grey I wish there wasn’t any rain I can’t wait to move from this place I can’t wait til I don’t have to listen to what you say I wish I had more games to play I wish I could have that name I can’t wait to board that plane I can’t wait to do it my way Then somewhere along the way You quit wishing the same You realize you should wait Because when you can’t You miss it Then it’s never the same You always wait for the day When everything is great Then realize the day for which you wait Is already gone, it’s yesterday Your innocence is gone Those blue shades You used to watch as you lay In the grass Have slowly changed to grey Because everything gets duller when you change You lose your sense of presence You lose the excitement in your face It’s no longer fun to run And go out in the rain Instead you close your blinds And wait for the...

Doors Too much chatter Always running  But always behind Can’t seem to get on top Not even with a ladder This room is packed I can’t find my breath Eyes cannot focus Legs shake with nervousness I don’t want to be here But I feel I must stay Just another day  Right, at least til…  I don’t even know if I can I don’t know if I will So much up in the air Carried by the will of the wind I finally let my feet Again find the floor I hurry toward the door Quickly run out before Anyone can catch me And try to make me Continue to endure This dream they implore Once again free But no longer secure So I type on these keys Find some new thoughts to explore When you go outside Nothing holds you anymore But you have to face what lies Beyond those closed doors.