The Fallback

 The Fallback


It’s been hard recently. This life takes effort. My drive to achieve perfection ebbs and flows. The thoughts are no longer concrete. There is a haze that sits within my head that blocks any clear vision. There are glimpses of clarity but it is not enough to stay on path. How must I combat this? I have attempted to find a way to remain trudging along on the same straight path I thought I could follow but it’s impossible. Life is not a major interstate, it’s a highway, through the mountains, through the forests, and through the darkness. But with no challenge, why would I continue? Ambition is obsolete without challenge. Without diversity, there is no way to overcome. To suffice. To satisfy one’s psychological needs. The fulfillment of completion. 

The day will come. There will be a day where the Sun will rise and seemingly never set. The horizon will never regain its fiery orb of light, of hope. That is the oasis in the mind of each and every person with a rampant ambition to live their life. Don’t live for anyone else, live for you. Do what makes you happy. There is fulfillment in helping others but everything filters down to personal joy. I slipped. I’ll admit I slipped. I hit a bump in the road and I let a flat tire slow me down for a significant amount of time. But now, it’s time to revamp. To reset. Time to freeflow. No more constrictions in thoughts so explore with me.


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