Self expectations

 Self expectations


I made a promise to myself from day 1 that I will never fall into a state of mediocrity. Since making this promise, I have found myself falling back on what I feel comfortable with. If I ever want to grow I must keep high expectations for myself and run from feeling content. I am scared to live in mediocrity. The monotony that I feel when I get comfortable is truly terrifying. The idea of living a life that does not fulfill my dreams is scarier than making a life-changing decision to do something different. 


Now, here’s what I did. I realized that when I become comfortable, I also am uncomfortable at the same time. I realized that I am uncomfortable because I feel like I have fallen into a rut that I cannot escape from. What makes it hard to escape from the rut, is I have to go through pain to escape it. It is going to require making multiple changes to my lifestyle to dig my way out of the hole I have created. 


I pinpointed what put me in this rut. What have I been doing that is not good for me that I have gotten comfortable doing? Once I have pinpointed those actions, I need to form a plan on how to disrupt those tendencies. I eliminate cues and triggers to fall back into my old ways. I change my environment. I change my routine. I do not let my brain feel comfortable enough to fall back. I then set my expectations higher than before and create rewards for achieving them and punishments for not achieving them. I need to feel the slight pain now so I don’t feel the major pain later. Don’t make a mountain out of a molehill. 


Action needs to be taken in order to make a change. You cannot expect things to happen without doing something to make them happen. Set your expectations high and make them the standard for how you live. Establish a new routine and change your daily habits. Take care of the wound now before it becomes infected. 


~Thank you for reading. My goal is to help teach others ways to better themselves while doing the same for myself. This is The Exploration.~


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