Nothing lasts forever

“Appreciate every moment, you never know when it’s the last one.”

You don’t ever realize you’re doing something for the last time until after the fact. Feelings are lasting but the moment is not. This is precisely the reason you must make the most out of each and every moment. 

At some point in time, you will do something you love for the last time and from that point forward you will miss being able to do this thing.

I have taken for granted all those days I was able to spend out on the baseball field even when I didn’t want to be there. All those summer days I was able to be outside spending time with my best friends doing the thing I loved. The smell of the fresh cut grass or the feeling of morning dew seeping through my cleats. The days where the wind finally fell and the hot summer air carried the ball for miles. All the nights taking batting practice with my dad as the sun went down. All the nights celebrating the big wins with my mom while midnight approached.

The feelings these moments created will forever be with me, but the moments have passed.

I reflect on these types of moments more often now.

I used to be sad that these moments would never happen again, but now I smile thinking about how strong these memories are. The memories that can be recreated in my mind with a single scent or taste or song. 

I think about the moment of now. This moment that will soon be gone.

I often lack appreciation for the things that I see everyday. The same monotonous things I do every single day. The feelings get old. I go about doing the same thing every day and I have lost appreciation for it. 

I want to regain the appreciation I once had for this place. I want to see the good in these people I have grown to dislike. I want to feel the excitement of doing something for the first time again.

But I will never forget the impact these things I take for granted have had on me.

These are parts of my life. Parts of who I am. Chapters in my story.

I have been singing the same song for a while now and I am ready to change the track. 

Someday I will hear this song again and be able to feel like I am here again. But for now, I will put the record back in the sleeve.

Change is bittersweet. The mind goes back and forth between current comfort and future growth. Comfort feels good in the moment but hurts when you realize you missed out by staying comfortable. Comfort causes you to lack appreciation. Growth allows you to look back and see your past in a new light. Moving forward will make looking back more fun.

I have been lucky to experience everything I have. I have been lucky to meet the people I have, to do the things I have done, to live the life I have lived.

I have realized noTHING lasts forever, but the feelings live in you always.

Don’t be sad it’s over, be happy it happened.

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Thank you for reading.

I appreciate every single person who happens to stumble across these deep sentiments buried in my subconscious.

I hope if you’re here you can relate.

My goal is to help others better themselves while doing the same.