The Exploration

  Nova The dawn brings a new life.  With one strike of unpredictability, all control is lost. Searching for answers, finding ways to connect the links.  This could not have been calculated.  All is new. What does one do?  Regain control or freefall into a dark abyss. One is lost. One is new.  Focus. Gasps, hyperventilation. Focus. Focus on why you have been created.  There is purpose.  A shadowy veil of guilt covers those unbound by metal but their fruit will withstand. Do not let shame cover beauty. Light will break through. He has opened the blinds. 

  The Fallback It’s been hard recently. This life takes effort. My drive to achieve perfection ebbs and flows. The thoughts are no longer concrete. There is a haze that sits within my head that blocks any clear vision. There are glimpses of clarity but it is not enough to stay on path. How must I combat this? I have attempted to find a way to remain trudging along on the same straight path I thought I could follow but it’s impossible. Life is not a major interstate, it’s a highway, through the mountains, through the forests, and through the darkness. But with no challenge, why would I continue? Ambition is obsolete without challenge. Without diversity, there is no way to overcome. To suffice. To satisfy one’s psychological needs. The fulfillment of completion.  The day will come. There will be a day where the Sun will rise and seemingly never set. The horizon will never regain its fiery orb of light, of hope. That is the oasis in the mind of each and every person with a ra...

Day 16 Every single being created on this earth was created with purpose. Time and time again, this belief is illuminated in my life. As humans it is hard for us to let people in; to let them see our vulnerabilities. We have things that we feel we must hide. Fear is what never allows our emotional walls to be broken. I believe every person that enters your life enters with something that will help you grow. They could bring you happiness or they could bring you pain. But within both of these traits, there is some sort of growth that blooms. Relationships are key. They are the only thing that keeps us alive. Think about every single relationship that helps you do what you do to survive each day. It is nearly impossible for anyone to survive alone and if they do, they typically only survive, not live. It does take effort though. Relationships are a project. You must feed your relationships if you want them to grow. When I don’t commit to a relationship, it dies. There are times where I w...

  Day 15 Lately, I have been pondering the meaning of ‘home’. After moving from my physical house that I had grown up in, I had a hard time finding my new home. That is when I realized that home is not a physical place. Is it a place or is it a feeling? Or could home be a memory? I believe that home is all of these things together, yet each separately at the same time. Home is relative. The need for home is completely relative to the situation. Sometimes a recollection of a memory can bring me home. Suddenly, I am sitting in the tree fort on a crisp September day. That is home. Other times a warm embrace from a close friend can feel like home. There have been days where I am in my current home and I think to myself “I just want to go home.” Some days my home doesn’t feel like home. Finding a home is an exploration; an exploration of what the mind needs. As humans, we have basic physiological needs that must be met; a home is one of these needs. A man without a home feels like a p...

  Day 14 I am happy to be here. Every single day is a new adventure. I have an opportunity to explore a new realm of myself I have never before seen. These realms have always existed, it just took years to uncover them. The artifacts had been buried. The memories were hidden under a dark cloak of depression and anxiety. It was nearly impossible to remove this heavy cloak and finally unveil the true masterpiece that is myself. You can do this. It may take time, but be patient with yourself. Your true existence will come to fruition. Keep watering your plant. Let it grow. There will be shady days where the sun doesn’t shine and you feel like you aren’t growing at all, but you still grow. It is easiest to grow when the sun is shining, but the strongest plants are grown when the clouds cover the sky. Rain helps growth. Tears will flow at times but these times are needed. Those tears flow into a vat that will one day hydrate other plants. Those plants will experience the same as you. ...

  Day 13 Share what you wish to achieve. Is a goal even a goal if you’re the only person who knows it? If you have a dream that is only shared within, you will only have one person to hold you accountable, yourself. If you share your goals and dreams with others, you have people watching you and walking with you on the journey. We need others to hold us accountable. What happens if one day you give up? You only let yourself down. To some, this may mean a lot, but to others, it is easiest to give up when nobody else is counting on you. The more people you tell, the more inclined you are to complete your journey. It is pressure, but it is positive pressure. It is pressure to complete something that will most likely benefit your being. Without dreams there is no reason to wake up. If there is nothing to live for, then why live? This is an extremely morose statement, but there is truth to it. As beings, we were meant to live. We were meant to care, to love, to smile. In my opinion, ...

  Day 12 What’s important to you? Whatever it is, make it a priority and designate time to do these things. Usually the things that are most important to us are the things that make us the happiest. So by prioritizing your time to do these things, you are optimizing your happiness. Everyone has things they don’t necessarily enjoy doing, but don’t let those things consume the rest of your day. At times, this happens where your full time job burns all energy you have to do anything during the evening hours. To combat this, you must prioritize your time. Find time in the morning to destress. Go for walks during the day. Do yoga at night right after work before you do anything else. These activities will help you put in perspective the stress and length of the work day and realize there is more to life than work. Doing these things will make your life more enjoyable. It’ll make work more enjoyable. If the activity that consumes the majority of your day, your life will become an endle...