Anticipation

 Anticipation

Anticipation can kill creativity. Oftentimes, I find my mind drifting from place to place and looking toward what is next. I make excuses telling myself “this can happen, once this other thing happens.” It’s a terrible mindset. To truly achieve what I wish to achieve, I have to ditch the excuses and focus my mind now. I must be in the moment. 

This year has been a vivid example of how my anticipation has killed my creativity. The cold months of this year were brutal. I told myself I will be able to focus and work much harder once it was warm outside again. I told myself I would spend each moment I could outside. Now, I tell myself it’s too windy, it’s too humid, it’s too hot. All of them are just excuses. Weather conditions should not dictate my ability to create. 

Now I find myself looking forward to fall. Everything seems to slow down in the fall even though it is just the opposite. How I waited all winter for warm weather and now all I can think about is how nice it will be to have crisp mornings again.
It is an eternal cycle. Days will begin and end just like they always have. The sun will come up in the morning and it will disappear at night. That will never change. But what must change, if you wish to make any improvement, is you. Only you can control you. This is a lesson I learn over and over again, day after day. Be a little bit better than you were the day before and escape the daily cycle.