Last days of autumn

 Last days of autumn


The time of years causes me to relive the best moments of the year so far. It is a great time of self-reflection and acceptance of what has happened. It is a time to remember the memories made when weather was better. It also allows us to capture the few, fleeting days left.


During the warm months, I focused on making the most out of every single day. Any second I had to be outside doing something, I took it. I realized after years of being sad every time the leaves would fall and the frost would form, that I needed to make the most out of the situation I am in.


This feeling taught me a lot about my own life. I was constantly waiting for things to get better, instead of making them better. I was always waiting for warm weather and telling myself that life will be easier when that happens. Telling myself I’d be happy once spring came. I created these falsities with everything in life. Now, I have recognized that those if-then statements I created for myself were just excuses. Excuses for why I wasn’t happier or working to get there. Now, I have taken ownership for my own life and I control what I feel.


When I look back to the beginning of this year, I am proud of how far I’ve come. I was able to flip the script on my mentality about life. I was able to create the life I want. I was able to feel happy again.


It is quite important to look in the rear view mirror. Reflect on where you’ve been, and be happy for where you are now. Continue to work on yourself and be the best you can be everyday. Autumn may be coming to an end, but a new season is arriving, a new season for new growth.


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