Relief through escape

 Relief through escape


Everyday felt the same. I felt like I was living in Groundhog’s day. Nothing would ever change and I could not get myself to feel something new. I wanted to escape from my current life, I thought that would give me the relief I wanted. I wanted to travel, I wanted something new, a break from the ordinary. I was chasing a high that was unattainable. I was chasing the life of others when I really should’ve been chasing a better version of my own life. What I realized is that instead of escaping from my life, I had to escape from the envy of a life better than mine.


For the majority of us, we are around other people everyday. We see the life they live, the money they have, the relationship they have, the car they have, their physical appearance, the position they have at work and we think, “damn it would be nice to be them.” Jealousy is a deadly trait that infects every human. The grass always seems to be greener. We think if we have what they have, then we’d be happy. If I get (blank) then I will be happy. In reality, this is not possible. The only thing that can dictate happiness is your own mind. 


I was searching for an escape in everyone else’s lives. I was searching for a fulfillment that would always leave me unfulfilled. I was chasing something that I could never reach. Something shiny would always be there to catch my eye. My current life would never be enough. So I began to learn that I had to make my life the dream that I was chasing. I started to avoid social media. I no longer looked at what others had over me, but looked at what I had that they didn’t. I started to become very happy with how I was living my life. This contentment slowly erased the envy from my mind. Envy is always programmed into the human brain, but it is possible to make its presence nearly nonexistent. 


Once you start forgetting about what others have over you and escape from the virtual world that only shows the best of the best, you will find relief. If you spend your whole life chasing what is ahead of you, you will never truly see what is going on around you.

~Thank you for reading. My goal is to help teach others ways to better themselves while doing the same for myself. This is The Exploration.~


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